Sweeping away the cyberwebs

Once again, I was hibernating in my little real world and despite reminders for updates, I turned a deaf ear. And after many many numerous numerous reminders, I decided to get off my lazy butt and start updating.

You know, there are many times when the statement, 'I gotta blog about this' , plays through my mind. However, my will is just not strong enough to really blog about it. So I end up telling myself, 'Ok, I must blog about this, about that, about those, about these when I actually blog'.

But, once again, it all depends on my flow of thoughts when I sit in front of the computer. I forget sometimes. Excuses, excuses, excuses. Oh well, what else can I say. I've a baby to take care of ok! The most convenient REASON of all. ;p

So, in my teeny weeny little world, Raine is now one year old. She's sleeping really soundly now and so that's also why I can have the luxury of sitting here typing. Time is no longer in my control. My world revolves around her and so does my time. So sometimes, I beg for my precious' mercy and plead her to go have her nap so that I can have a little bit more time for myself. If she grows up, I'm gonna ask her to invent a drug that is suitable for making babies sleep. Kinda like a sleeping pill but harmless. I think I'm gonna be a millionaire should this pill ever be invented. All parents will thank me and babies will grow really quickly cos all of them have their beauty sleep. Remember, you first read about this idea here! This idea is MINE! So don't ever try to be funny and invent this pill before my baby Raine grows up. The pill shall be called 'Raine's beauty sleep'. But first, I must make sure that you people reading this have babies. Otherwise, no one will need 'Raine's beauty sleep'. When I mean have babies, have them when you're married. Remember, no sex before marriage! Don't go round telling your parents that I'm encouraging you to have babies. Of course, this applies to my young underaged readers. For older folks, or rather, matured readers, go get married and have babies. Oh whatever.

So I digress.

Yes, so Raine is one and we held 2 birthday parties for her. One at my mum's and the other at my own place. This is to prevent Raine from being overwhelmed with love. She can spread those love over 2 days. Isn't it nice? So she had two birthday cakes, sang the birthday song twice and blew candles twice.

Her first birthday cake

Her second birthday cake

The second birthday cake was significantly bigger than the first and we took about a week to finish it off. After throwing some away. I think she enjoyed herself but I doubt she understood what it meant when we wanted her to wear her princess party hat. She knew that she was the centre of attention when all of us sang birthday song and looked at her. She clapped and was smiling away. I reckoned the adults had more fun than the birthday girl herself. Especially when I was happily snapping away while Cousin Seth wanted to show his love for Raine.

Seth: Happy birthday cousin Raine

Raine: Hey, what do you think you are doing?

Seth: Happy Birthday my dear cousin!
Raine: Erm, I think you're getting a little too close...

Seth: Ok, I tell you what, let's face the back. Your mummy's a little annoying!

Seth just wanted to pose for picture with Raine. But Raine wasn't too cooperative. In the end, we gave up and decided to ask them to stand for a picture together instead.

What's up with the party hats?!

Her birthday party was simple but nice. I wanted to celebrate her birthday in style. You know, with lots of balloons, presents and lots of people. Then I decided not to cos she probably won't remember and I'll end up being really tired. And poor. So simple is good. But I'll definitely hold a MacDonald birthday party for her when she's older. I think every child deserves it.

Well, despite our efforts in giving her the best of everything, Raine is still very much the menace. She's becoming a little independent being who insists on wanting things her way. She'll want to walk on her own in shopping malls. Without us. She'll want to take things out of the stores. Without paying. She'll just do everything that we don't want her to do.

Can't imagine what it'll be like when she's older. Like in her teens. Oh gosh! Can't imagine. I'll just tell her not to let others know my occupation. How ironic if her teachers gotta ring me up every now and then to complain about her.

Back to my updates. After her birthday came the school holidays. My favourite time of the year. Went on a trip to Tokyo with just hubby. Decided to leave the little imp behind. Otherwise, I don't think we can actually enjoy our trip. Plus it'll be too cold for her. So the main reason why we didn't bring her is cos it's too cold for her. That's right.

It was a really good trip. We always love trips to places with cold weather. We just wanted to see smoke coming out from our mouths when we talk. Not from cigarettes. Loads of time alone together and that is something really precious nowadays.

We visited Disneyland, Mount Fuji and most of the other places listed in our trusty travel guidebook. Seeing how the Japanese behave kinda puts me to shame. They are soooooo polite and orderly. They queue for everything. They queue for the train, they queue for food, they queue for toilets, they queue for donuts, they queue even when they want to look at christmas decorations. Talking about christmas decorations, Tokyo is beautiful at night. They've lovely christmas decorations everywhere and with the cold weather, it really feels like christmas.

Us with Mount Fuji in the background

One of the beautifully decorated street

A view of Hakone while on a cruise along Lake Ashi

Now I know why so many people around me love Japan. The view is awesome and the place doesn't really have lots to complain about. Apart from the fact that it's getting a little bit more expensive with the exchange rate and and the amount of walking one has to do while you're there. The subway station itself can kill you! If you're complaining that Dhoby Ghaut is big, you wouldn't complain once you've been to Tokyo and back.

So I was saying that the weather over in Tokyo was cold and though I loved the cold, I just can't tolerate the dry wind that blows in Tokyo. It makes me feel that my face is all tensed up and it feels that my face is cracking each time I talk or smile. It is especially so when we were up on Mount Fuji. It was terribly cold and my hands were freezing. That's when my hubby said something that I thought was really funny. We were standing on Mount Fuji looking across at some other mountains. It was a really beautiful scenery. The wind was blowing against our faces and we were just taking in the moment.

That's when he said, 'So this is how it feels.......'

Inside my heart, I was thinking of, 'to be living in a cold country' or something to that effect.

Then he continued to say, 'to be a meat or vegetable in the freezer'.

Imagine my reaction in that instant. I didn't know whether to laugh or roll my eyes. I just burst out laughing and realised that my hubby does has his funny moments.

I had a great time this holiday. Though the trip was short but I had fun. While I was in Tokyo, no matter how impish my little baby Raine may be, I missed her tremendously. I'm seldom away from her for such a long time. Each day, I wonder whether she's sleeping well or eating well. And to some extent, I feel a little guilty leaving her behind in Singapore while we're having fun. We decided to bring her along for our next trip. I guess trips away from home will never be the same again after having a baby. A little part of you just seems to be left behind when she's not around.

Christmas is coming and we've gotten ready our gifts for the kids. No matter how bad a recession is, kids ought to receive presents on Christmas. I always receive Christmas with mixed feelings. I love Christmas but when Christmas is over, it means my holidays will be over too. Then it'll be back to the mad rush of school bells. I had better cherish my remaining holidays before it's over before I know it.

Oh, I forgot to mention that my flight to Tokyo was delayed. For 4 hours! Goodness gracious! And I thought this wouldn't happen to the our local flight. It's supposed to be the best isn't it? Sigh, nothing's perfect in this world. And I can't agree more when I was trying my best to remain jolly at the airport.

My trip to the airport

Last weekend, we brought Raine to T3.
She enjoyed herself tremendously cos she gotta explore the place all by herself.

And this is what happened....

Ok ready? Is the camera on me? Ok ready. Good!

Ok let's play peek-a-boo!

Ok don't cheat! Don't look at me. Peek-a......

BOOO!!!!!

Not funny? Ok let me do the Donald Duck walk for you.

Still not funny?!?! You better laugh! Want me to box you right?

You come here!!! Gimme the camera!!! How dare you!

The trip ended amicably with Raine falling asleep on the way home.
No adults were hurt in the process.

Oh my butt!

Alright, just a short one.

Look at me on my bumbo chair!

Does my bum look big in this?

Oops! I think I'm stuck!

Oh gosh!! Mummy help!!!

Heng ah! I will not sit in that silly chair again!

Walk Baby Walk

My baby's walking confidently now.

Can almost imagine her saying, "Look Mum, no hands!"

Right now, Raine is sleeping soundly after exploring the house for the whole evening.

She's been babbling away as well, saying things like 'baba', 'dada', 'ya ya ba ba da da' and whatever combinations that you can form with all these syllabuses.

I wonder when will 'mama' occur....hmmm...

On top of all the walking and babbling, Raine's teething again.
Can see her two other toothies peeping out from her gums and she's been searching for her pacificier in the middle of the night.
I really can't wait for her to grow up!
I mean she's growing up but I mean really grow up.
I think I'll miss her baby days when she's really grown up but I can't wait to really have fun with her.

School's just school these few days.

O-levels has started and I'm passing all my luck to my 2 graduating classes.

Just keeping some for myself to make sure that no bird poo drops on me or me falling off the stairs.

Went invigilating today and I am really impressed by the manners displayed by the pupils of my invigilating school.

Manners abound and that's enough to impress me.

Pupils, you have to remember to thank your invigilators when they give out your writing papers to you.

It makes a whole lot of difference to the impression they will have of you.

Trust me.

Oh ya, to vegetarian tiger and carnivorous goat.

So happy to see the two of you talking again. =)

A little breather

No, it's not a busy period for me.

Or rather, I'm getting a little break now that 2E5 and 3T1 are having their end of year examinations and the prelims are over for the sec 4s.


So it seems that my marking of the prelim exam papers are over.
The exam papers didn't smile at them AT ALL.
In fact, most of them deteriorated and they didn't seem at all worried.
Goodness gracious!

However, one of the classes improved and though they didn't improved by leaps and bounds but they did improve.

Like I told them in class, I told them that though I'm glad to see their improvements but it's not enough for me to feel secure that they can do well in their O-levels.
I don't expect them to do well for me.
I want them to do well for themselves.
But how else can I help them except to be there for them when they need that little helping hand.


It's strange to think how complex human relationships can be.


Last week, I celebrated my 5th year wedding anniversary with my hubby.
It's been 5 years.
Sometimes, when I think back of the times we spent together, I still find it amazing that we've spent 5 years together as husband and wife.
No doubt we've our shares of arguments and disagreements but on hindsight, it's always due to the way we show our concern for each other.
Probably, overly-concerned hinging on paranoia.

My hubby has been a great husband.
He's thoughtful in his own little ways and always put the family first before anything else.
He has his fair share of flaws and I'm sure I do as well.
However, he often turn a blind eye to my flaws and accept me for who I am.

We celebrated our anniversary in a simple way with dinner and drinks.
Simple and yet something that we both appreciate very much.
Eversince Raine is born, we seldom get a night out without her.
So even simple things like dinner and drinks seem extremely rare and special.

Today, I'm blessed with my family, my friends and a healthy body.

Raine is growing up day by day and I'm etching her growing up process deeply in my heart.
She's learning fast and her latest craze is to roar at others.
Her confidence to take her baby steps is growing and I'm still waiting for the day where she can confidently stand up and take her first few steps into her toddler year.
She's now a mischievous little imp and her funny antics never fail to brighten up my days.
I can't wait for her to grow up and call me 'mummy'.
Now she's just blabbering away with words that just doesn't make sense.
But I'm starting to realise that they're now of different intonations and pitches.


Her hair is a constant worry of mine.
Brought her to the hairdresser finally few weeks back and it was a disaster.
She started crying the moment the hairdresser laid the scissors on her hair.
She didn't stop till the hairdresser was done.
By the time the hairdresser was done, her face was covered with a mixture of hair and tears.
That was indeed a very teary hairy situation.
Gotta coax her with her favourite ride on Barney before she put the whole hair cutting episode behind and started smiling again.
So how did the haircut look?
Well, nothing much changed except that her fringe is now shorter.
Wasted $20! What's worse was the hairdresser.
She looked like a total ah lian and stunk of ciggies.
Sigh!
I swear I'm never going back there ever again!

I'm still deciding what kinda celebration I should have for Raine.
It's afterall her first birthday party!
But I figured she's too young to enjoy anything and the only people that'll appreciate the whole celebration will be the adults.
How?
This is such a tough decision.

Long Overdue

So....it's been a while huh.

Haha!

Exam papers setting was waaay too long ago.

Holidays came and left.

Week 1 is halfway through and I still feel a bit dazed.

And what have I been up to?!

Seriously, I was busy.

Ya ya, everyone's busy!

"But I can blog when I'm busy and you cannot."

AH HA! I know that's what you're thinking!

However, that's where you are wrong!

I'm busily being busy so you can't blame me.

Let's see.

Before the holidays, I had to prepare for the Teachers' Day concert.

Intensive preparations ok!

But I was glad that it all turned out well and I have everyone to thank for.

And after concert was over, being sooooo soooo popular, I had to say hi to many many pupils.

4E1 2006, I am very glad to still see so many of you.

It's been 2 years and trust me, you guys still hold a special place in my very big heart.

I know I mentioned that I'll blog about you guys, I will, I will.

Later la ok? I have to do alot of updates you know.

Ok back to what I was typing.

So after saying hi to many many pupils, I had to rush off for my Teachers' Day lunch.

Alright, maybe saying hi to many many pupils was a bit of an overstatement.

Cos most of them were actually rushing off to go home and I was rushing back to the staff room.

They were in my way and so I kept saying hi to shoo them away from my path.

Then the holidays came!

Yooohooo!

The whole holiday was spent with my little princess.

Had to take care of her for the whole week as nanny was away on a holiday.

I enjoyed myself tremendously as I really get to see her every of my waking moment.

(She appears in my dreams sometimes as well, so it's not only every waking moment.)

I'm really proud of the progress that princess has made so far.

She's now starting to develop her own character and has started throwing her princess tantrums.

She's learning to understand simple instructions like, 'come here', 'clap hands', 'bye bye' and so on accompanied with actions.

I always love to sing 'When you're happy' cos she'll always get so excited and clap along when I sing that tune.

She's also starting to learn to walk.

Though she can always walk successfully without support on the bed, she's still not confident enough to do so when I put her on the floor.
She'll eventually end up crawling.

But she loves it when we hold her hands while she waddle her little diapered butt around.

Physically, she now has a total of 4 pearlies!

Well done!

And she loves biting my finger with them.

Trust me, it hurts.

So you see, sacrifices of a mummy.

Her hair is still standing even though most of them are starting to fall back into place.

Been wanting to bring her for a haircut but I just keep telling myself to wait till all her hair looks normal before I do that.

Haha!

But I wonder when will that be.

Each time I look at my little princess, I think to myself that my little princess actually doesn't really look like a little princess.

She's more like a little prince actually.

But I'm very sure with all the pink clothes that she have, she'll have no problem transforming into a princess soon.

I love spending my time with her.

Watching her grow gives me immense satisfaction.

I always like going through her photos when she was just born and compare her to now.

She's grown so much!

No wonder others always says that baby's first year is always a year of transformations.

I'm now planning her 1 year old party.

She's gonna be one!

Oh gosh, how time flies.

By then, another batch of secondary 4s will be graduating.

Mr Exam Paper, did you smile at them?

They probably didn't think your smile was wide enough.

Cos I'm definitely not smiling when I was marking their papers.

Disappointment yet again.

Oh well, like how they always love to say.

I love you Raine Raine.

I don't feel like going on anymore.

It's gonna be 11pm and it's bed time.

My dark circles are getting darker and I think I'm looking more and more like the Olympics mascots.

My eyebags are bigger than the trash bag.

Oh and trash bags are black.

Gosh, I think my eyes are looking like trash bags.

By the way, I posted a challenge to 2E5.

Told them that I wanted them to be the model class.

I'll find out tomorrow.

I couldn't help laughing when I told them this just now.

And worst, they laughed along with me.

Sigh.

Oh well....

I'm so done!

*PHEW!*

Dear Exam Paper,

Thanks to you that.....

I've suffered sleepless nights.
because of all these sleepless nights, I had low immunity.
because of my low immunity I fell sick.
because I fell sick, I took my first MC for the year.
because of this first MC of the year, I can't get my $10 NTUC voucher.
because I can't get this $10 NTUC voucher, I have less $10 to spend.
because I have less $10 to spend.....

*ponders*

Ok, I can't think of a consequence cos I have less $10 to spend.

Anyway, thanks to you Mr Exam Paper that I have less $10 to spend.

So Mr Exam Paper, to justify the time that I spent on you, please make sure that my students can do well for this prelims.

Smile to them when they see you so that they can feel more confident.

Pass them some wisdom so that they can remember what I've taught in class.
Well, of course that is subjected to whether they've learnt what I taught in class.
Then again, that is subjected to whether they were listening in the first place.
And that is on the condition that they decide to turn up for class on that day.

Sigh.

Many say that the job of a teacher is really difficult cos you need to multi-task.
I think that's really an understatement.
Cos at times I feel that I just don't know what I'm doing at work.

Just when I finished typing the sentence above, Raine started crying.
I think she misses me.
She misses me so much that she woke up from her sleep just to let me know that she misses me.
Once again, I've you to thank.
Because of you, I didn't really get to spend time with my baby for the past few days.
And I'm worried that she'll think that I don't love her anymore.
That can result in her having a traumatised childhood and end up having an emotional scar.
She'll then grow up to be a delinquent and hate me for the rest of her life.

Oh Exam Paper, please recognise my sacrifices and efforts.
Smile to them.
Make me happy.

Yours sincerely,
Me